JUST TO SAY THIS.....

everyday i try hard to change something,
to change the way we talk and the way u feel,
and to make u see more than friendship.

evrynight i sleep with regret and promises,
the promise to try again all my tricks,
but i always end up being a HYSTERIC.

history repeats itself and so i do,
no matter how hard i try to avoid you,
and i cant as whatever i feel is true.

when i gaze into ur eyes i forget my joy,
as i know that they cant be mine anyhow,
and it brings the seas of sorrow as i cry.

is it necessary to achieve what u dream of?
about it sometimes i say yes, sometimes no,
when i think of u, keep it alive is what i hope.

i dream of everything like others do,
it seems evrything is achievable as i look,
but its of no meaning without you.

in straight words i just tried to say this
nothing matters to me but ur freindship
so never leave me and try to tolerate my HYSTERICS

THE SEASON OF LIFETIME

the summer has gone months ago,
but its warmth is still alive,
i dont feel cold shivers anymore.

i didnt sleep that summer for whole season,
and enjoyed it so hard to get sunburns,
i knew winter was just behind for some reason.

its not about hot or cold neither about rain,
the colors what a relation changes during time,
the joy of summer, and winters tell all pain.


for every next one i got a new reason,
suffering are same but never so soothing,
this time i know next winter will never come.

it started with a search in barren cold,
knocking at random door for some relief,
someone seems busy and someone scolds.

after long days of search i see a ray,
ray from the eternal sunshine of spotless mind,  
and here comes the day for which i usually pray.

melting the layer of frozen emotions,
it passes through the heart killing that pain,
and again striking the cords of passion.

thats how everytime i change the course,
enjoying the present and respecting the suffering,
till i see the dawn and fog behind it.

but this time its different than past,
the longest summer i have ever seen,
and its the first winter i have ever enjoyed.


TO BE EDITED......