Day First without you..i was nearly dead

I never had such night, the one I had yesterday...I cant explain the sleep and the experiences I had in those 8 hours.

I was senseless,, only she was there in my thoughts and I had an urgent work to do for my client but I wasn't able to concentrate on anything, so went for a therapy called "take a sleep and forget everything". I havent used it since a long time but whenever I used, it helped me very effectively to overcome such situations when I am broken,

So I slept early around 9 pm, with an alarm of 2:00am. and i fell asleep 15 times in just one hours and I was feelig the illussions and dreams I was watching. I couldnt differentiate whats real and whats illussion. And she was there everytwhere in my dreams. I dont see much dreams of her but yesterday it was different, we were talking about what went wrong, she was consoling me while I was laying in her lap. O GOD! MAKE IT HAPPEN >>PLZZZZ..

I heard the alarm on the very first ring, it seems I wasnt sleeping at all. Then I sat on my table and draw few lines bu then again..still I felt her fever, I felt like I was in cage and restless, So i went inside bathroom and took a bath with. It was cold and litle relaxed, then I again i sat on table..and draw few lines,,but couldn't control my mind to see the things beside her..it was like the last day of my life...

i quit and went to bed,,and fighting with the dreams i passed that night...I will never ever forget this day...and so her...